I feel like there should be more ways to convey that word in English, a better way to convey the depth. Like when word suffixes in other languages totally change the meaning and how they relate to the entire rest of every word in the sentence. Or how in the Bible if LORD is written in all capitol letters it is God Himself- everything He is say versus with just the L in Lord being capitalized it’s His title; but He’s still showing up in both situations.
Suffice it to say I stake my life on the fact that I have only gotten through because of His strength, His providence and the fact that He is WITH me in every way shape and form. At 3 am, when I’m too busy to think and He’s keeping me level, when there’s nothing else, no logical explanation for how I made it through the last hour (or less somedays).
Knowing He is WITH me through the pain, the tears, the struggles but also all the joys as well. Knowing He’s with me in those moments I’m either too numb or exhausted to even think more than His name, or more recently when I can’t turn my brain off and things are going 1,000 miles a minute in 20 different directions.
He’s with me in the silence and the chaos .
He watches the sunrises with me.
He helps me through the countless kindnesses of others and watches with me how their actions affect my life for the better, help my own faith grow or even stabilize.
He is WITH me as I’m too tired to go on and says, “Heather, stop trying to push through and keep doing it on your own or how someone else laid it out. I know every single thing about you, I love you, I’m listening, I am HERE. Put it all down and let Me take over. Trust Me, I will never leave you or forsake you, I will guide you with my eyes upon you, I know your needs even before you do and am already working on them, I know your heartache and am close to the broken hearted, I will be WITH you in your coming and going. I will supply all your needs, I am WITH YOU as you walk through yet another shadow of the valley of death, but we’re walking through it because there is something better on the other side – but we needed to go this way for a reason because the next mountain top I’m leading you can only be found this way. I am the Good Shepard who will protect you. I am closer than the breath in your lungs and spirit and soul. I am WITH you and watch over you as you sleep and when you are awake.
Let me carry that. I’m here WITH you, waiting to fulfill my promise that my yoke is easy and my burden light. Let me pull the weight you were never meant to try and pull yourself but society and people and experiences have told you otherwise. Let Me handle this; I’m here WITH you, lovingly waiting to take it because I care too much about you to force you to do it. That’s why there’s free will- I love you too much to take anything from you without your consent.
I’m here. I’m with you. Let me take that so you can rest.
Once you do, and as you rest and be still You will actively know that I AM God because of what I will do and show you and work all things out for your good”.
He’s with me when there’s only so much compartmentalization I can do until my brain becomes The Cask of Amontillado by Edgar Allan Poe. But at least there are underground, aqueducts, and wells of Living Water that can get both me and you through.
